On June 21st, 2005 my life changed forever. I lost the use of my legs that day and with it, my identity. I initially felt degraded by my disability and desperately wanted my old life back. What I didn't realize at the time was that I could still be an athlete and while many doors closed, others would open up. Fortunately, I had an amazing support team of health professionals, friends and families that helped me find myself again and gain the perspective I have today.
Every year on June 21st, I'm reminded of that life changing event and emotions from that day tend to find their way back into my heart. I'm not proud of it, but on that day, without fail, a piece of me misses my old life and dreams of what could've been. Instead of feeling sorry for myself, I try to go about my day recognizing the amazing life I'm currently blessed with and all the opportunities ahead of me.
This year, I chose a special way to spend my anniversary. On June 21st, 2014 Donny and I rode in our first Para-Dressage Show. I couldn't think of a better way to spend the day that reminds me of loss than to celebrate with all that I've found. While Donny and I made plenty of mistakes that day in the ring (62.5%), it was the most empowering experience for me. Not once did I want my old life back and my gratitude for all those who helped me get to that point was almost overwhelming. I can't wait to see where Donny and I are June 21st, 2015 to celebrate the 10th year of my new life.
Donny and I after our Para Ib Individual Test
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